A Reflection of Taking A Rest

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Writing about a journey has never been an easy one. Especially when most of the experiences are inward. How do you suppose to describe the sense of travelling inside yourself. To be honest, sometimes you feel lost in words after many journeys. And when you found yourself in your so called homeland, you only wanted to wrap yourself in a cocoon.

By January 2015, it’s already the rain season outside, in this tropical rainforest state and you wanted to wrap yourself more. You are already back home and scattered yourself all over the main island and the gods too. You never really stop walking. You wanted to rest and you know you mindfully need one. And you did.

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You asked your local massage guy, Pak Warto, to help you in shutting your body down. This strong headed body of yours, who often forgot it limits, who always chase herself to go beyond her limits and sometimes it feels not so good. The body would take it toll in the end, and in that third week of December, you start your hibernating period.

Closing yourself.

But not totally, because you have your growing six year old boy beside you who would want to snuggle every single time because he has been missing you so much. And he is in a bear cub mode on. But you need that too for your eternal motherly bonding with your children. And he helps you. Reminding the essence of nurturing, that to grow is also by giving nurture. Or like my wise friend, Hanny said, to let go is to let in things too. It has always been a two way process, a circle, not only a one way thing.

And the flu started. A bad one with extra cough. The young cub got one, but not as bad as you. You feel the pain, the choking in every time you tried to speak out and something stuck by your throat. And slowly you sooth yourself down. Hot lemon water, those childhood classic: Ibu dan Anak cough syrup made in Hongkong, the forever saviour of Indonesian: Tolak Angin, and extra extra long nap.

You sooth yourself by slowly talking inside. Very slowly. And listen. Listen to yourself. You feel Bali is calling you, once again, like in every grandmotherly calling.

You had to take a flight exactly at Christmas night, that nearly poked your brain to death, which you commit not to ever take another flight when the flu happen. But like all things you arrived safely in Sanur. You had come to rest. Breathing the sea breeze of the Balinese southern sea and sleep in for some more. Enjoying your private space with your son. Your soul mates popping up in the house. Giving you all the love, hugs and food for all the nourishment of your heart. And in the end you find yourself in the magic mountain of Pupuan. Finding yourself in the circle of women healers and the heart of your soul mates. And be blissful, be thankful. Finding all the love in the eyes of loved ones in the first light of 2015. And you snuggle in for some more.

Everything feels out in the open of the grass fields and the wind slowly whisper in your ears. The moon is still. And you burst slowly like a never-ending fireworks. Seeing your own beauty. The beauty of each moment of your lives. Even the beauty of all the pain that had transforms you until now. And you let yourself be healed. With every tears that runs, you wash away all your sorrow. With every smile you give, you give all the love you got inside you. And just BE.

With all the imperfections of life, the impermanence of a moment and FEEL them completely.

Your purpose in life is often to find this BALANCE. In where to start and where it ends. When to keep walking and when to stop. Life has teaches you that in your journey, you start picking up your pace. Smoothing things out. Slowing things down. Stretching yourself to see the flexibility of your heart. The beauty of a certain fall, the courage to stand up and the ways to fly away.

And you know there would be time for you to walk again, start that run and raising that head once again facing all what lies ahead.

For now, rest, my dear heart.

Listen to your own heartbeat.

photo: Asabhumy snuggling in Sanur’s house

ubud: organic products to die for

cantika rose hair series, photo source (she is a great designer btw)

in the wake of finding the perfect shampoo, stumbling the variety of organic products of ubud were basically sending you to the seventh heaven. starting to committing myself for decreasing my daily chemical consumption, i found interest in hunting for local findings. where once i found an organic shampoo in jogja and since then there’s no way back to those manufactured products (i even say bye to bodyshop, read ingredients, people).

i found cantika in ubud. my friend could swear it is one of the best spa in heaven (err, the world), i did not manage to try it the last time i was in ubud, but manage to brought home some of their products. using them the last two months are amazing. my short hair become very wavy, shiny, jet black. in the hottest day of jogjakarta’s sun, the coolness of their shampoo stayed. such a fabulous sexy smell also!

cantika massage oil, image source

i’m loving their massage oil, it’s very relaxing and they have a little balinese arak in it.

P1050655bluestone products, lavender natural soap and javanese garden mist

bluestone product is another thing. they are specializing on aromatherapy oil and balm. but their soap are amazing, i used the lavender daily and never felt the need for extra moisture. although i love body products often i’m very practical and lazy to do the whole routine. soap with extra moisture are always great. the javanese garden mist i used daily on anything, from pillows to my yoga mat. the good news, they ship all over indonesia.

P1050659bluestone lavender

organic soaps texture are very mild to the skins. i really love their cakey texture. that’s why when i saw kou’s soap, me and mia (she is a soap lover also) pass their shop, we scream.

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P1050654kou lemon mint and vanilla heaven soap (yes, they come in small bars)

kou products also including natural jam and salt. their jam is making some reputation so far i heard, i would try it next time. for the soaps you can buy the small bars per 100 grams, which are a good news when you want to try everything in the shop.

so another trip to ubud again?

kintamani: lakeview – freshness from home

P1050612terong belanda (tamarillo) and orange homemade ice cream of lakeview resto – kintamani

i would recommend anyone going to kintamani to see the batur mountain and the lake, to take a stop here. either for lunch or dinner, some herbal tea in a cold afternoon is always good.

staying at lakeview hotel and having the dining experience here, you can’t help to feel the familiarity in every bites. the sweetness, the spice and the homemade feeling of everything. not to mention the freshest salad ever made by the manager himself, kadek khrisna adidharma, freshly picked from their own garden. cakes and cookies are fresh from the oven and it is good with their special herbal tea.

i can’t help to feel the tranquil feeling when i saw the view from the dining area. eating should be a beautiful ritual like this. in kintamani, eating among the mountain view and misty lake. you know life has been good and would always will be.

P1050619tamarillo jam with banana pancake, lakeview resto – kintamani

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P1050631fish satay, lakeview resto – kintamani

P1050643buffet pick from the local range of food, lakeview resto – kintamani

bali: retracing kintamani – batur

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batur in a mist

i fall in love again with bali, that’s all i have to say on my nine days stay after not being there the last three years. being in kintamani, seeing the mount batur and batur lake all over again just pour out all the random emotions. that bali is always and always will be my second home.

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bali: a journey to rewrite yourself

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writing at the terrace of lakeview restaurant

this is my fifth night in bali. i just got back from this writer’s retreat in kintamani. bali has been amazing. i’m suprise to find myself enchanted to its beauty once again. i have been making a lot of inner journey and found myself in a huge creative energy mood through writing. my wish right now is somehow to have the view above everyday when i’m writing. it is such a good recharge.

swastiastu. om shanti shanti shanti om.

before sunrise and after sunset: bali road trip

IMG_7799dawn at alas (forest) roban, banyuwangi

i always love a before sunrise and after sunset sky. that lingering twilight never failed to amazed me anywhere i go. i used to take a trip to bali by bus from jogjakarta in my student days, sometimes just for 3 days. when i just need the time alone, ubud used to be my favorite getaway from my busy life. i guess i’ll make more of this series.

IMG_7827street of ubud after sunset, bali

IMG_7852ferry crossing at gilimanuk – bali